Difficult times

Maria’s children (her third-grade students) lives are similar to Marias because the come from the same background she comes from. They are different because even though they work in the fields they don’t move and work as hard as what Maria had to as a child. Her children are not afraid to sit up in the front of the class and participate in class, as for Maria she always sat in the back and wanted to go unnoticed. Maria states that “She understands what these children are going through because she was once like them.” She also says, “But unlike me, they will never do more than travel the country picking crops.” She understands that when the crops out of from being picked that they have to pack up and go to the next place. They do not have to go through the abuse her and her family went through. Maria now knows the signs if a child is being abused because she was once in the position. She really connects with her children because she was once that child who hoped around from school to school because the crops were done being harvested in that area. 

Something that I had to do was really hard was telling my best friend that I was talking to a guy she did like. This guy and I had dated before for about a year and half and it was a very toxic relationship. Right after my high school graduation we split up and went our own ways for about four months. This summer wasn’t the easiest but it came with a lot of life lessons learned.  Back in September we started talking again and we were just talking as friends, now we are back together but we are on much better terms. This was something very hard to go through and to tell my family and friends because they don’t want to see me hurt again the way I was. In my perspective, I relate to Maria in this instance because she didn’t want to tell her mother that she was held captive and raped by this man that her family had known for years. She was scared that people would ask her why she couldn’t keep a husband and didn’t want the words her father told her and the family come true. I was never put through the physical abuse but emotionally I was because It was as if I couldn’t ever keep anyone happy. When I was at a point where I was happy someone else wasn’t and I always heard about it and I had to deal with it. This is the same way Maria felt whenever she felt as if things were going up things would decline and she would be unhappy again.